I don’t like talking to you first because I think I annoy you.. Then when you don’t talk to me, I feel sad :l

DEAR GOD MY LIFE RIGHT NOW

utterly miserable.

Well, this sucks. I’m in New York, I thought I’d be happy. Of course I’ve only been here for like 24 hours. But to be honest, I haven’t been this bored in almost a year. When I’m in Tucson, I’m always on the go. At work, taking Daisy places/out, going to coffee shops, shopping, driving, whatever I want. Here, I’m stuck. Stuuuuck. Although tomorrow I am hopefully going to Rochester- my stomping grounds! Where I will have a car I can use, and someone who will want to do things with me. I loooove my Aunt, but she loves to watch the news… something I’m not really into. I mean, I’ll watch it in 30 minute intervals, but I woke up at 8am today and I literally watched different news stations without a single break until 11pm. That’s like 15 hours of uninterrupted news programming. Terrible! I wish I could have used my Aunt’s car, because then I could have gone into Lewiston and gone to the Orange Cat or something. Instead, I sat on the computer….. all day. So boring. I have four friends in New York. Emily, Becca, Mike, and Evan. Emily is in Brockport, Becca is in Rochester, Mike is in Monroe county, and Evan is busy as shit with all sorts of stuff. Not to mention he’s totally in teenage boy “I’m great” mode. And I don’t dig that, not one bit. Lonely. And I hope this isn’t a preview for my life. I don’t know if I want to move here…… I don’t want to be miserable. 

the worst part of all of this? NO WEED. Can’t smoke. No relief from reality! All I want to do is get baked and cuddle. 

all I want

issssss someone to smoke with and chill with and laugh with and drive with. My life would be perfect.